You can always say no, Squall. [ She used his na~me. ] You might not think you can, but you can. You're good-looking, and if you're worth your salt as a soldier, then you've got plenty of marketable talents. You could do something else and live another way, if you really wanted.

I don't really think you do, though. I think you like what you do...you're just coming to realize that you're doing it in a robotic way. You can put yourself into a role, or you can adapt the role to yourself. But regardless of that, you have to know who you are. You have to find yourself before you can control your life.

Probably part of what you see in others, that thing you're angry about? Its because you admire it. Its people who are true to themselves or what they believe themselves to be, regardless of the consequences.

You just have to find the you that you're satisfied with.

[ She trails off for a moment, pursing her lips and looking to the side before adding. ]

Start with your integrity. No matter the context, your integrity is really very admirable. You stick to something that gives you no joy because you've already committed to it. Someone with a weaker will couldn't do that.