video;

[fuckinstoplights]

[Well it's the birdbrain again, this time, holding up something pink and glowing.]

[He looks completely bewildered. But that's nothing new.]

What is this? It just -- I was talking to someone, and it just appeared.

Did I do something wrong?

[And yes, that's a serious question.]

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[video]

[strengthinkindness]

Oh...! You have a crest!

Comgratulations!

[video]

[fuckinstoplights]

It's a mistake. It has to be.

They said it's for worthy people. I'm not.

[video]

[strengthinkindness]

...Why not?

[video]

[fuckinstoplights]

I'm only a prototype. I'm not... anything special.

I'm not worthy of anything.

[video]

[strengthinkindness]

Th-That's not true...You're here, so you're worthy of something. What that is...that's up to you to make it what you will.

[video]

[fuckinstoplights]

What could a prototype be worth? Without him, I...

[Deep breaths, kid.]

I'm alive, for certain. But... beyond that, beyond life and memory, I don't have anything.

[video]

[strengthinkindness]

That's just it, though. You're worthy of life. That's more important than anything, and because of that you have a chance to do something with it. You're here, you're alive...and that's such a precious gift.

[video]

[fuckinstoplights]

Then the one who gave the gift should be here, getting this thing. Not me.

[video]

[strengthinkindness]

That's not how it works. Life is such a mysterious thing...sometimes it just happens. And once you have it, you have to make it something for yourself. It's yours, and no one else's.

[video]

[fuckinstoplights]

Maybe that's true for someone like you... but I...

I was made, because of him. Made to be his imperfect model. I was made for him. Not myself.

None of what I am... is my own.

[video]

[strengthinkindness]

[She frowns.] You may have been made for someone else...but the fact that you're here...that you're not him...means that you have a life of your own.

Our Digimon...our first partners...are like that too. They're all a piece of the "real" Digimon, broken off and taken from them..."imperfect" models of what the "real" Digimon should have been.

But that doesn't matter, does it? The fact that they're supposedly just a fragment of other Digimon doesn't make them any less real, any less important, does it? They're a piece of those Digimon...but they're not those Digimon. Not anymore. They are their own living creature, with their own thoughts and feelings, different from the models they were taken from.

But they all still deserve a chance to live...because they're already alive. And it's the same for you as well.

[video]

[fuckinstoplights]

But I have it, because of him. I am who I am because of him...

[But then he goes quiet, looking off-camera while she talks.]

I... know that. About Koro.

That's why I kept him. Why I can't get rid of him. [And why he finally bonded with the hell muppet.] He's not a program, though. Not like I was... am. His feelings are real. His emotions. His heart.

[Or so he thinks, anyway.]

[video]

[strengthinkindness]

But you're not...No matter what you were back in your world, you're human now. Right here, in this place, your just as real, as alive as everyone else.

And you were brought here for a reason. All of us here, we were chosen to be something, because of who we were back home. The world saw you had something to offer...that's why it brought you here to help.

[video]

[fuckinstoplights]

I...

I don't want to be chosen. I don't want to be here. Or be human. He's supposed to be the perfect one.

If he isn't, if I'm suddenly more worthy than he is, then... then I failed him.

[video]

[strengthinkindness]

Why does that have to mean you're more worthy? Can't you both be equally important in different things?

[video]

[fuckinstoplights]

I don't know.

He isn't here... so... I don't know.

[video]

[strengthinkindness]

...Would it be terrible to try and find out yourself?

[video]

[fuckinstoplights]

I really... don't know.

I never thought ... being apart from him would be this difficult to do.

[video]

[strengthinkindness]

I'm sorry this is so hard for you...But there are...people who are willing to help you. Who are willing to be there for you...It might not be the same, but...it could help make it a bit easier?

[video]

[fuckinstoplights]

I... know they want to help. You want to help.

But I guess... I don't know how to accept any of it.

[video]

[strengthinkindness]

There's...really no other way to accept help...then by just letting us help you.

[video]

[fuckinstoplights]

Even if it feels...

[He doesn't know how to phrase this, other than:]

... wrong?

[video]

[strengthinkindness]

Wrong...? How does it feel wrong?

[video]

[fuckinstoplights]

As in... I don't deserve it.

[video]

[strengthinkindness]

[She sighed softly.] I wish I could help you see...Everyone deserves friends, and help...and just to be alive.

I wish I could help you see that.