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[Video] ♞ Fire Cross I

So do any of us actually have any useful information about the gates yet? We can't just sit on our asses every time we're not being attacked by digital bugs. Most of us have been here two months and there are people who've been here even before then; someone has to know something.

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[A very big frowny face.] I-it's not easy...! Just 'cause there's no...magic, or stuff like that. ... 'm 15, go to high school.

Ahhh, right. Homework and peer pressure and social groups.

It's not just that! [He's shouting again; his voice cracks.] Being-- just-- just because it's not, world changing stuff, it doesn't mean that, it's not hard, just-- everything.

[That stubborn little voice mutters in his head, about how much he's making something out of nothing, how he should just stop being such a crybaby and how he probably wasn't strong enough anyway, why'd this world even take him?

In a hiss, he breathes in, because without realizing it he stopped for a moment.]

...My problems are still problems.

It's only hard if you let it be hard. Can't say I've ever experienced a normal high school life, but if you walk around letting people get to you in any setting, of course it's gonna be hard. When you let people get to you, you make it world-changing stuff.

I'm getting to you. I'm getting to you and I'm not even trying.

[ And if he were trying.... Well, it's a self-proclaimed special skill of his to get under people's skin. Still, it's not the same when he has this much of an effect on someone when he's actually making an effort to be polite and civil. If he actually picked on this kid? On Cam? Seifer's almost positive he'd fall to pieces. ]

Look. We may be fragile mortal beings. That doesn't mean we can't take on the world. You got dreams, don't ya? If you work toward those, you can handle anything.

[ That's it. He's been in this world too long. It's glaringly obvious because he feels uncomfortably guilty for upsetting a kid he barely knows by being himself. He liked it better when he was too busy following orders to care about the consequences of his words or actions. Now he has to sit here and think and deal with everything instead of leaving it behind. ]

[He listens, listens and you know, Seifer's right, but that just leaves a pit in Cam's stomach. How much does he have to try before he reaches that point again? The point where he's completely given up, in the greenhouse, and...

It leaves a lot of pits in his stomach.]

You're right, 'm... sorry.

[The feed cuts. He...needs a walk.]

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